As you all may’ve noticed, since I’ve begun writing for SC4G, I haven’t written from personal experience even once. Out of all of the wonderful writers on this site, you may know the absolute least about me. From my posts, it may seem as though I have it all together, but the truth is I don’t. The truth is that I’m a normal teenage girl, and just like every other teenage girl, I have insecurities.
At times, I believe I have even more insecurities than your average fifteen year old, and honestly, I haven’t been writing about the outcomes of my failures because I am afraid to. I am afraid my readers will lose complete respect for me if they find out who I really am.
My mother always tells me I need to have confidence in myself. So do my friends. They encourage me to try new things, so I decided to go out on a limb because I saw this as my opportunity to encourage other girls to appreciate who they are, what they have, and most of all, to love themselves.
The spirit of this site is to use our own experiences, and struggles to offer hope, and encouragement. I have insecurities which can sometimes paralyze me. Specifically, I have no confidence when it comes to my appearance. Recently, I was fretting so much over my looks, my sister threatened to not speak to me for the rest of the day if I continued to belittle myself. We were in our room goofing around when I asked, “If you could change one thing about your face, what would it be?” She replied, “Nothing,” then asked me the same question. “Everything” was my reply.
Not long after that, I decided to re-invent myself by becoming the strong, independent, and confident girl I’ve always wanted to be. Loved ones, self- help articles, and SC4G have all helped me on my journey so far, but everyday reveals another battle.
What I am trying to say is that God has led me in this direction. He is also the reason, from now on, I will push myself to be more accepting of whom I am. He created each one of us by His will. God knows us better than we know ourselves. He did not form our appearances, and personalities differently for naught.
Today while I was waiting in the car for my sister, I watched the rain. I watched the small droplets gather on my window until bigger ones would slowly make their way down the glass in a stinted flow. Maybe it’s strange, but I love the rain. It cleanses the roads and spreads the scent of flowers in the air. After it stops and the sun comes out, the world shines with an ethereal glow.
But rain can also inconvenience me. After school today, I walked to my car in it and my clothes became covered with wet spots. Rain gets people wet, rearranges outdoor activities, and slows traffic. It disrupts my plans.
Do you have rain in your life right now? Are there major things that have happened lately that seem to disrupt all your future plans? Sometimes when my hair get soaking wet or my clothes get covered in wet spots, I tend to concentrate on my frustration and forget the blessings of rain. Romans 8:28 that, “for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” In the midst of trials, it is hard to remember that every event is an instrument of God to bring us good. Just like when a picnic gets cancelled because of a rainy day, we may not always like the circumstances that are designed to bring us good, but we can know for sure we will come out of the trial with a renewed knowledge of God’s love for us.
Be encouraged that at the end of an especially hard rain, the world sparkles as though it’s brand new.
If you’ve ever done any hiking or mountain climbing you know the journey is easier with a light backpack. It would be silly to add rocks to your load. Life is very similar. It’s a series of uphill battles and carrying extra weight like anger or fear only makes the journey less enjoyable. Your parents’ divorce can be ongoing anxiety because the landscape of your family will be different for the rest of your life.
How did God tell us to get through uphill battles? Turn them over to Him. The battle is His.
Exodus 14:14 “The Lord will fight for you. You need only to be still.”
God gave this instruction to Moses as Pharaoh and the Egyptian army were trying to kill him and the Israelites. A large ocean called The Red Sea nipped at their toes while the Egyptians surrounded them. God halted the Israelites on the shore and instructed Moses to raise his staff to the ocean to separate it. Suddenly the ocean dammed on either side creating a shallow path to the other side and when they were safely across He instructed Moses to raise his staff again to close the Red Sea. The Israelites watched in awe as the ocean devoured their enemies.
Have you asked God to help you with your battle? Our Heavenly Father is still a God of miracles.
The parting of the Red Sea is one of my favorite miracles in the Bible. Imagine being an Israelite running for your life with the option of death by drowning or death at the hand of an Egyptian. There was no other option till God intervened.
What’s weighing you down today? Let God fight it for you. Don’t take it to someone else. Go straight to the source because no one has the power He has. He will make a way where you see no way. Thank Him in advance for what He’s going to do for you.
Know I’m Praying for You,
hurting yourself. Cutting, anorexia, bulimia, and picking are outward displays of internal pain. Teen girls are usually the victims as they struggle with pain caused by circumstances outside their control like turmoil at home. These problems are serious and not likely to be conquered alone.
If you’re struggling with one of these issues, I have good news for you. Jesus can and will restore you from this destructive behavior. He healed lepers, He healed prostitutes, and He healed the blind. The same Jesus who healed so many when He was here on earth will do no less for you. What’s required of you? Just believe. Believe your Heavenly Father can take away the desire to inflict pain on yourself.
“Just then a woman who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak. She said to herself, ‘If I only touch his cloak, I will be healed.’ Jesus turned and saw her, ‘Take heart daughter,’ he said, ‘your faith has healed you.’ And the woman was healed from that moment.” Matthew 9:20-22
Reach out to Jesus like this woman did. You’re His daughter, too, so ask Him to make you whole again.
You’re so precious to God. Please take the following steps and begin your healing process today.
1) Admit to God you have a problem. Name the problem and ask for His help.
2) Pray specifically about your struggle at least once a day.
3) Seek a Christian adult whom you can confide to share your situation.
I’m willing and able to connect you with a trained professional to communicate personally or via email. Contact me directly through this site and I will help you.
Know I’m praying for you,
Music for your iPod: Healing Begins by Tenth Avenue North